~ An Hour With You~













 Letter To My Big One

 Little girl,
Can't talk.

Inside, I call for help,
Not knowing what for.
But no one hears.

I'm mute...
Silently calling.
No one can hear.

I grow...
Somethings wrong,
I don't know what.

Still trying to call,
No one hearing,
No one listening.

What's wrong with me?
I call out...
Can anyone hear me?
Won't anyone help?

More growth,
More of the same,
No one hearing,
No one listening,
Calls for help,

One day,
There's an awakening.
Someone within
Says "I'm here".
And this time
She's heard,
By the one who's grown.

Who are you?
Where did you come from?
Do I know you?

I'm here,
Calls a soft voice,
Inside...all alone.
They hurt me, Big One.

What did they do?
How were you hurt?

They hit me,
Made me take off my clothes.
They looked and they touched,
And Big One...
They hurt.

I tried to run,
Tried to hide,
Couldn't talk,
Couldn't cry,
Couldn't tell.

No one to tell,
No one to listen.

I was so little,
They were so big,
I had to let them
Do what they wanted.
I was so afraid.

When they were done,
I hid inside.
I didn't want you to know.
It was my secret,
Never to tell.

One day...
A memory slipped out.
And then another.
I thought it was safe,
And that I could talk.

But then you hated me.
You thought
I should have stopped them,
Should have told.

Big One...
Who could I tell?
Mommy wouldn't listen,
And there wasn't anyone else.
I wasn't supposed
To talk to grown ups.

You hurt me Big One.
You take away my friends.
You do bad things
To make them leave.

You take away the things
That I love the most.
My drawings,
Favorite teddy bears,
A favorite owl.

You tell me you hate me,
That I'm stupid,
A nothing.
You burn my hand,
You think of death.

Big One???
I understand.
You're afraid,
Just like me.

Can we be friends?
Will you hold my hand?
Will you stay with me?

I need to talk...
Need to share.
These memories,
Can't be handled alone.

Can we go
Through this together?
Hand in hand?
Will you help me?
Will you hold me?

I need you Big One,
I'm a part of you.

Big One...
I love you !!

Submitted By Karen
With Permission of the Author


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Music: "Don't Go"

Original Composition By: Yuko Ohigashi
Used With Permission